Goin natural...i think

So I'm really crap at looking after my hair, i've got bleach and a relaxer and i'm really suprised it aint dropped out yet. I really hate having my hair straight now I prefer it big and curly so what i might do is just grow out the relaxer and just have it natural and just plait or corkscrew it at night so its curly in the morning.

The only thing that worries me is that i remember how much of a nightmare my hair was wen it was natural and i dunno if i can go back to that again, it would take literally take a whole day to wash and dry and thats not even an exaggeration!

My mum was like why dont u just not bleach ur hair, but i cant not have colour in my hair id feel naked. But at the moment im really seriously considering goin the natural route

This is my hair at the moment

And this is how i want it to look eventually.

I was reading some past posts and realized i've been sayin i wanted my hair like this for a couple years now, and i keep bloody cutting it like a donkey then moaning that i want my hair back.

Luckily after the kids my hair has started to grow fast, i dunno why but i hope it's a permanant thing. But yeah thia is how big i want my hair (and if i could also have a body like Teyana Taylor I wouldnt complain either lol) actually i wouldnt want her whole body I'd still want my boobs hehehee.

I'm also gonna stop with the nail extensions cuz them bloody ppl keep cutting me so i dont want to do it anymore