Scared to fly again

I went through a phase of being terrified to fly, to the point where I wouldn't sleep the night before and would make sure i was the last person on the plane so that I wouldn't have to sit on the plane and wait and also so that i'd be completely knackered that i could just sleep most of the flight.

Then a few years ago something happened and I stopped being scared, well i didnt stop being scared i just learned to tolerate it so I'd really been looking forward to my forthcoming hols to JA later this year until recently. Now is it me or is it that anytime you see the news it's reporting on a plane crash and it's not even little charter flights that are crashing it's big national airlines, like the latest Turkish Airline one.

Now I'm scared to fly again and don't know if I can handle a 10 hour flight I've got ages to compose myself but that could be a bad thing cuz I'm probably gonna worry and freak myself out the closer it gets to the date. I might have to drink myself silly while just before take off to knock myself out and just get the hubby to wake me when the food comes out.